Lord, please keep making me

Make me empty

So I can be filled

'Cause I'm still holding

Onto my will

And I'm completed

When you are with me

Make me empty

'Til You are my one desire

'Til You are my one true love

'Til You are my breath, my everything

Lord, please keep making me

(Sidewalk Prophets)

We received our dates today, and this has been my prayer since... 

It is often a whirlwind, just as it was today. At around 2 this afternoon I got a call from Dr. Del Nido's office saying we need to be there next Friday. Sam will have an outpatient work up day on Friday June 6, cath Monday June 9, and if needed surgery will be on Wednesday June 11. As soon as I hung up with them I was making calls to make arrangements. After an hour and still no where to stay (no rooms available except king suites for $400-$600 a night) I put in a call to our one and only Boston friend, Amanda. She and her husband Chris live and work in Boston, living about 20-30 minutes away from the hospital. Not necessarily the easiest, most convenient option since we will have early appointments on Friday, but we have to have some where to stay. I am just so grateful to have them open their home to us like that. I keep thinking what would we do with out them? I seriously have no idea. We have always had last minute trips, but never had this much trouble finding a place to stay. We will figure out the rest of the trip as we go, especially not knowing how long we will be there. For now just Sam and I will be flying up. I know that Brian would love to be able to be with us, but it is much more practical for him to stay home at this point. We have our flight booked and will fly up Thursday June 5. If we find out after the cath that Sam will be having surgery, Brian will fly up on Tuesday and join us. But if all we do is a cath and come home, there is no need in spending all that extra money on plane tickets and possibly a place to stay. Brian has always left us at some point to come home and continue to work, but I have never done an entire trip by myself. I'm sure it will be tough, but I am also sure we will make it just fine. 

I already had a trip to Bowling Green planned for this evening. So I was trying to quickly get logistics for Boston worked out so I could carry on with my day. Sam kept asking who I was talking to and what I was doing. I have been nervous about telling him and worried he would be scared and anxious about the trip. I told him we were going to Boston next week so Dr. Marx and Dr. Del Nido could check on his heart. That he would have a work up day and then a cath, but really shouldn't have anything done that hurts. (On Friday he will have labs, but they usually use numbing cream first. This doesn't always make him any calmer when the time comes, but at least I know it doesn't actually hurt. And before his cath they with give him medicine through his gtube that will make him not have a care in the world ;)) After I explained all of this to him, he simply looked at me and said, "I don't know if the dr is going to say we have to stay a long time, but if we do you have to push me around in one of those cars I like, and we have to take all my movies." That was it... And once again I was humbled and thankful for God's amazing grace!

My mind has had a thousand thoughts run through it since the call this afternoon. So many emotions to experience. I have prayed to God for His will and not mine, His strength to cover my weakness, His peace to cover my fears. I need Him to keep making me until He is my everything. That is the only way I can do any of this, through God's grace, and as always it is more than sufficient. 

Thank you for your prayers. Please continue to lift us up this next week as we make preparations for our trip and enjoy these few days at home with our sweet boy. Yesterday he flew a kite for the first time, it was great! :)